Week 1
Dear Mom,
I know you don’t know I am here yet, but I am really excited to spend the next forty weeks with you and never be apart. There are so many things I am looking forward to, and I can’t wait to be held in your arms and taught by the very best mama I can think of! I know there will be some ups and downs these next forty weeks and the lifetime after that, but I am sure glad I have you to be my mom! I want to be just like you when I grow up!
Love,
Your Baby
Week 3
Dear Mom,
I sure have been growing here and I think that if I keep up this pace we are going to have to expand our living quarters to make it all the way to thirty-seven weeks, but we have some time before we have to worry about that! I am so glad you found out that I am here, I know you were crying when you found out, but I am sure that they were tears of joy because you love me so much! I know I am going to have tears of joy after my time growing here is done and I get to rest in your arms! I love you so much mom and I am excited to be raised by you!
Love,
Your Baby
Week 6
Dear Mom,
I am so glad I overheard you talking to the doctor last week, I was really wondering what this thing was called that is beating in my chest, I now know it is called a heart. I should have known since you too have a heart that beats, and it seems like it is really important! I know your heart started beating a bit faster when you found out I would be staying here with you for the next thirty-four weeks, it also seemed to beat a little faster when you were talking about your future plans with dad. I sure am glad you are planning on continuing school and getting a job! I am proud to have such a hard-working mommy as you! Since I learned I have a heart I have also learned it goes together with love, so I want you to know that I “heart” you mom! I am looking forward to these great adventures that we are going to have!
Love,
Your Baby
Week 8
Dear Mom,
I really like trying out all kinds of different food, I know some of it hasn’t really set well with either of us, but I love trying new things with you! As long as I am with you I want to try all kinds of new things. Pizza was amazing, but it didn’t make my stomach feel really good, I heard an advertisement on a TV about these things called tacos, I think we should try them for second supper tonight! Also, I’m really not sure why, but pickles and peanut butter sound like they will make a wonderful combination. Let’s eat that tomorrow for breakfast! So many new things to try and learn I am so glad I am with you mom! You’re the best!
Love,
Your Baby
Week 10
Dear Mom,
Last week I learned to suck on my thumb, I think this is pretty cool! I can’t wait to show you in the next photo shoot I have, what was that called again? Oh yeah! You called it an ultrasound. If I would have known the first time it happened, I would have made sure to smile. Mom, you always make me smile, I am so glad you are my mom! I am a little concerned about the appointment next week, I just didn’t trust the sound of their voice. I am glad I have the best mom in the world though! I know you won’t let anything bad happen, and if something bad does happen I am glad we can go through it together!
Love,
Your Baby
Week 11
Dear Mom,
I have starting moving around a little bit more, I can’t wait to jump on that thing called a bladder, it looks really fun! Also, I told you not to trust those people at the appointment yesterday. Can you believe they were talking about mothers who didn’t love their children and wanted to get rid of them? I am so glad you love me and want me! I am so blessed to have you as a mom! I’m still not sure why you scheduled a follow up appointment with those mean people, but I know you love me so that is ok. I know you have been a little sad the past few days and have spent some time crying. Whenever you are sad it makes me sad too, but I am glad that we can be sad together. I love you mom and can’t wait for you to hold me! Also, pickles and peanut butter didn’t really taste good so let’s not do that again. I’m thinking we should eat some more of that chocolate stuff, that was really good!
Love,
Your Baby
Week 12
Dear Mom,
I really have a bad feeling about the appointment tomorrow. I know you are nervous about it too. I just don’t see why we need to go back to those mean people who talked about moms who didn’t want their babies to stay with them. They didn’t even let you see the picture they took of me and I was smiling and sucking my thumb just for you mom! I think we should just cancel the appointment and just watch some chick flicks together. Even if the movies make us sad it is fun to be sad together! My vote is staying home and watching a movie, I know you have been tired anyway so there is no need to go back and see those mean people.
Love,
Your Baby
Week 13
Dear Mom,
I really like my new home, but I sure do miss you! It was the worst thing that could have happened to me, but I really do like it here. It was really scary when we went into that appointment yesterday. I know you were crying all morning leading up to it and I still think we should have stayed home. When the mean people came in and started talking I knew they didn’t have any good intentions. You probably don’t remember really well what happened, but I do. They shot a weapon at me, I think they called it “forceps” and it just brushed by me the first time. I figured they would stop after that, but they kept going. I tried to scream at first when it grabbed me because it hurt so bad, little did I know that that was just the beginning. They grabbed my arm and it hurt so bad as they pulled and pulled, I could feel my everything ripping it hurt so bad that I screamed even louder. The more I cried and screamed the more I realized no one could hear me. I was so afraid mom! They moved to my leg and then my other arm and then they tore at my other leg; it hurt so bad I can’t even describe it. Finally, they put those horrid things on my head, the last thing I remember before everything went dark was that horrible noise that moved my whole body away. It was terrible mom, I don’t know why I had to go through all of that, all I wanted to do was grow up and be just like you.
I’m not sure if you love me anymore, but I still love you. In my new home I met someone who loves me even more than I thought you did, His name is Jesus. When I got here He put his arms around me and hugged me, I was so looking forward to you putting your arms around me, but his embrace was even better. He told me that He loves me and when I told him about the mean people and what happened to me He told me that that made Him very sad and even angry. He told me how much He loves you mom, and even though I love you so much, I think He loves you even more than I do! He is very upset about what you did and how you chose not to love me, He even told me how much it hurt Him that it happened, somehow it hurt Him even more than it hurt me! Jesus told me that He still loves you and that He died on a cross for you. He still wants you and me to spend time together, He called it an eternity. I still want to spend time with you too mom, but He told me that there was one thing that had to happen if we are going to get to spend time together. You have to accept Jesus as your personal Savior, then we can spend an eternity together. Jesus is so great mom you should really get to know Him! He told me He would forgive you and wanted to forgive you, but you still had to ask Him. Please, ask Him soon! Mom I still love you and want to spend time with you, I hope one day you will get to hold me.
Love,
Your Aborted Baby
Author: Sam Jones
Pastor Sam completed an intense pastoral internship at Hagerman Baptist Church and served as a chaplain at Heritage Care Center in Iowa Falls, Iowa before accepting the call to pastor at Faith Baptist Church in Hudson, Iowa. He loves people and his goal is to make disciples of Christ by personally, prayerfully, and persistently investing the Word of God into others.
